I'm arguing with myself about whether I should suck it up and go to work or call in sick. I caught some little nasty bug along here somewhere (I think from a co-worker) and spent the entirety of my weekend trying to get over it.
If I stay home from work, I would be doing little of consequence while the rest of the designers pick up the slack. The difficulty in whether or not I should make the call is ... I'm OK with picking up slack for anyone. I'm not so OK with the favor being returned. I don't like being the one who needs help or the one who caused my co-workers to have to take their dinner breaks at their desks again for the fifth day in a row.
I exaggerate, we always eat at our desks nowadays.
But I still don't like being the one that makes it difficult for everyone else. I don't feel great. In fact, I feel like I've been through a ringer. I don't want to get co-workers sick. ARGH! I don't want to use a sick day either!
Maybe I should take a cue that using a blog to argue with myself is downright ridiculous and I need LOTS of medication. Those two voices in my head won't shut up, though. (In case you're wondering, no I don't hear voices. I'm dividing my thoughts into two categories and assigning them anthropomorphic characteristics based on the angel/devil personas.)
Devil: "Stay home! You need to rest and you'll feel better sooner."
Angel: "But you have work you are responsible for." That damned responsibility.
Devil: "This is about taking care of yourself. You run the risk of staying sick longer or getting someone else sick if you go in. Think of your pregnant co-worker. Do you think she wants to catch what you have?"
Angel: "You can eat cough drops the whole day and stay at your desk with a bottle of water. You can limit contact and everything will be OK."
Devil: "But you feel like crap."
Angel: "Suck it up. Life makes you feel like crap, too. Does that stop you?"
Devil: "There are plenty of people who take sick days when they're not even sick. You really are sick. Take the day and have a clear conscience."
Angel: "But you know you could make it through the day just fine."
Devil: "This isn't school. They don't fail you if you become sick within an inch of your life and have to take more than your allotted sick days."
Angel: "Well that's hardly the point. It's a matter of dumping the work load on someone else who doesn't need more to do."
Devil: "Yes, it is the point. There's no reason to feel guilty about taking a sick day. You really are sick."
...... OK, now I'm just having fun with it. Sorry. I'm still at an impasse, though.
I take it back. I feel shitty and I can't push myself past it. Devil wins.
Now get me some soup!
CHUNKY!
